Acceptance

It's been approximately 13 years since I was first diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, WOW!, and I finally within the last week have just accepted that fact. I say that because for 13 years I have said I had Fibromyalgia because that is what the doctors said was wrong with me but I never really accepted it. It has been very difficult to accept what a lot of doctors, most people and the social security disability administration don't believe exist. Imagine people always looking at you and saying, "you don't look sick" all the time. Unless you suffer with Fibromyalgia or Chronic Fatigue there is no way you could know what this disorder is like. I have found it difficult to find words to express what I feel, but others have done it well. One of my favorites is by,

So here's my story. The year was 1994 and I was pregnant with my first child. During my pregnancy I was extemely fatigued, which I now know wasn't exactly normal, but at that time I just though that was how I was supposed to feel pregnant. Are there any other Fibro/CFIDS sufferes out there that can relate to this? Somewhere around this same time frame I woke up one morning and couldn't turn my head; I went to my primary care doctor and was sent to physical thereapy. No relief. I returned to my doctor and this is when I first heard the term Fibromyalgia. He said he wasn't sure but he thought that this was probably what was going on. I researched the condition and decided that this was not what I had. During this time period I had other streesors going on in my life as well. My son was born, April 1995 , and I was extremely anxious. I was terrified of becoming a mother and didn't sleep the first 4 days he was here. December 1996, my mother passes away due to cancer. My mother and I were extremely close, so this was very tramatic for me. In October of 1997, I was involved in an accident at work on board an airplane. I sought treament from my Chiropracter. 6 weeks into my treatment I was ready to be released to go back to work and went in for my adjustment and my chiro had another doctor sitting in for him that particular day and that is when my life as I knew it was changed forever.